Hmmm haven't blogged for quite some time, no mood I guess. Lets try to recount.

Fri

I only rmb i played viwawa hahas. There was this particular group of pp i played with that was very fun, first time i talked so much in a game :D Nice to talk to in normal convos too. But some really funny things happened hahas.

Sat

Went for dance, was told i deproved T.T Oh ya, my sis had really bad temper that day, got me real pissed too. I love her and all that, and she's really nice sometimes, but a lot of times i seriously can't stand her. Maybe its my prob but I can't help it :/

Sun

Ummm quite a boring start of the day, then went to bugis library to meet Karis, Eunice and Yi Hui but of course only eunice was there hahas. Our script writing went quite ok, then we went Macs eat :DD I shared large fries with eunice then ate TWO vanilla cones hahas. Eat until very happy xD

After eating at macs we went J.CO donuts to eat. They anw hahas. I was too full. Yi Hui had no place to sit so she put her book on my head and ate her donut whilst reading -.- And seriously, Yi Hui is retarded -.- Eat donut eat until so dirty LOL. We all kept laughing at her throughout the whole project xD

Mon

Maths then PE, PE cos ankle injured so nvr run 2.4. YAY! So i just stood by the track with Mr Yap and he started talking to me. I wasn't pay much attention then suddenly he went

"What type of guys do you like? Fair, Tanned, Bronze, Sporty blah blah?"

I was damn shocked la. Then he continued about this topic and seemed to be very interested in my answers T.T I just kept saying I dunno -.-

Racial harmony celebration was quite nice la, but the last performance was seriously quite boring. We escaped to the toilets xD

CCA was ok, other then the fact that i was confined to a chair in a small corner not allowed to dance T.T then got lectured bout my ability to injure myself -.- Haiz. Guess i deserved it. But i really didn't mean to...

After CCA saw Eunice then kept niaoing her XD So fun hahas.

Today

Haiya, I also dunno what to say. The performance was ok ba.

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Don't read the below paragraphs, its just emo shit that i have to vent out somewhere.

I don't know, I just feel emotionally stressed. Its not really cos of anyone or anything, just I don't think i can cope. Its like suddenly there's lots of responsibilities you have to take on. Maybe I'm just not ready. I know how lucky I am to be given this chance, but I just can't seem to do what I'm supposed to do.

Maybe you don't see what's so stressful about what I do. Its simple and nth much, but its still very hard for me. I can't handle doing so many things at one go, teachers telling me this and that. Now that i think of it, I'm supposed to have done 3 things yesterday but still haven't done it. I don't know how much longer i can keep this up.

But there are some things that i don't even want to admit that they exist, i'm squashing them in the back of my mind hoping they'll disappear, but they don't seem to be doing that. Everyday i think more about them and i feel like my head's exploding.

I'm just sick and tired of everything sometimes. Sometimes i wish i could curl up in my bed and stay there. Its hard to face everyone. I'm getting tired of all these.

Maybe cos I've been happier this year, that's why when I'm sad I'm sadder, if that make sense... it might not to you, but its my way of explaining things to myself.

Maybe just like pride goes before a fall, happiness go before sadness? The higher your expectations, the bigger the disappointment. Maybe its just like that. If so, would it have been better if I wasn't happy? Just live monotonously then I wouldn't feel so much...

Anw, thank you so much for being there for me. I doubt you'll ever know how much, since I probably won't tell you and you probably don't realise but maybe, just maybe, you're the only one keeping me sane. I don't know what I did, but I'm really really glad I did sth to have you by my side. I've gotten used to you, you've become something that'll always be there. I know I'm unreasonable at time, don't know how you stand me but thanks for overlooking all my flaws (or just ignoring them) and standing by me, talking to me when I needed someone to vent my frustrations to. Thank you for everything <3